Does she even like to be disturbed? Is she constantly listening to her reflection in your lap? Is she a total recluse? Does she wear her feelings on her sleeve? Does she wear her feelings on her chest? Does she seem to have a lot of things up her sleeve? Is she so damn good-looking, you’re afraid she’ll start to show you off to people?
The problem, for me, is that I can’t find out by watching. I have no personal access to her body language, and I also have no idea what words are being said, or what emotions are coming out. I can only feel what she’s feeling, and maybe it’s telling. Maybe she doesn’t say “hello” a lot because she’s a little shy about it. Maybe not anymore.
I have always been the kind of guy that loves knowing the details of what other people were, and I’ve seen that sometimes, people can make themselves seem very convincing, like the TV news and the movies do. But other times they’re lying (or, I suppose, acting like they’re pretty good about it). And sometimes what you see on TV doesn’t mean what you’ve experienced for yourself, what you’ve been observing. I remember when someone called me a weirdo when I’d tried to get away with something: I told her all about it, and then I got on with my life. She had a lot of stories about how people were so convinced she was weird. People say this to me all the time. It’s part of playing the public games.
I think that’s part of it. The person’s just trying to tell their story.
But how do you know when you’ve found out what she felt? I have never been able to tell whether she likes to be disturbed or not.
What I’m saying is, you know what you see. A lot of people have the gift of being able to see things in a way that no one else can. But that is a rare gift, and some people have more of it than others. It’s a function of how deeply a person has absorbed it. They’re born into it.
Is it possible for a person to get the full experience from a particular person—the fact that she’s interested in something, or the fact that she’s attracted to a certain person—but not the other way around? Maybe you can get the other thing.
I don’t know. If you have a great actress