It sounds like fun, but for a long, long time I just pretended I didn’t want to. I was so lonely I started to masturbate to the voices in my head and just watched them when I wanted. When I felt I was about to get stuck, I would just masturbate to the idea. I can never do it the way I wish. Then, in the middle of my first session, I realized how strange it was. I would stop short before I went completely over the edge (I was never completely over the edge). But now, I couldn’t stop and it made me come so fast. I thought maybe I would take a few steps back, but then I would stop. I would just come again before any more came out. I was surprised I could stop. I thought it was because of my age and body. But I was so relieved I’d stopped, that I wasn’t even feeling guilty about it. Maybe it’s just something I just need to figure out for myself. But it’s also weird when I’m being horny and my hands are just going to whatever I want. I’d just start jerking off and the first time I really came, I was so turned on. It was almost like when I was a kid and I wouldn’t let anyone watch. It was too embarrassing and the thought that someone could see made me so hot.
I’ve always watched porn when I masturbate, but I just can’t seem to get to the point. I feel like I’m not even close. I really need to take a break before I try it again. I’d prefer not to feel so embarrassed after having someone else masturbate with me to a porn video.
In my last blog post I discussed the idea of ’emergence’ for a very different kind of business. As you might have heard from my previous post, I’ve created a podcast, ‘The Secret, with Kevin Rose’, on the topic of making the best use of available time. As an entrepreneur, you should take the time to learn as much as quickly as possible anything you can about the world. With all this in mind, I have to say, that I am really impressed with what Mike’s book ‘The Entrepreneur’s Way’ has produced. Not only does it teach the practical methods of ’emergence’ in a clear and concise manner, it goes all the way to the heart of why it is so important, for good or ill.
To demonstrate his point, Mike draws on